SCREEETCH!

haha.
Sigh... I've been looking foward to posting this.
I think it was two weeks ago... My first thursday rave. Mini dress, heels, sexy hair warrra warrra. Got free drinks all night. So i discovered more skin was the solution to a broke night out. Ha... men.
I went out with Super Sanguine and Bootyfull. It was great! It all began at our local pub here where, what shall I call him Nostalgia, thew for me afew drinks. Got tipsay...yay, but then I was noticing that he was paying a little more attention to me than he usually does ( I dated him eons ago-never really been any chemistry ever since)... Then when I'm leaving the pub with Super sanguine and bootyfull to go change for the *rumba that night, he's all up in my biz asking where i'm going and why because he'd already ordered a drink for me. Anyway, i still left.
The *rumba... Drink drink drink...dance dance dance. Nostalgia had halad asking where I was (???????) so i told him. He comes. OOOOkay so at the end of the night he comes to my place (haha..woooo) let me tell you how it went down. at the club i kept on telling him "Get into your cab and go to (his place of residence)!" He was like no no no, *eti I cant leave him hanging like that and so on. Evetually he gets into a cab to go to HIS HOME... but just as he did that, PSYCHO ANNA NICOLE SMITH (P.A.N.S) Starts *letaing for me DRRRRRRAAAAAAMMMMMMA just there outside the club. these drunken vibes! ahhh!!! and she was with LezGurl which was just so weird and awkward for me since Lez was still calling me-hung up on me warrra warrra... So Nostalgia jumps out of his cab trying to be super man and before i know it he's getting into a cab with me in a 'rescue mission' style straight to my place. THAT IS HOW THE *CHIBO CAME TO BE.

I expected more from the shag-due to certain elements being at that current time... a miss.

So forget Nostalgia.

REmember Blast from the past? BFP? the guy who's been halaing at me... guy i knew from Primary school and hadn't seen in 8years...
So yesterday, i invited him over for lunch to my place. I cooked-mashed potatoes, stir fry and tomato gravy... :-) :-)
I met him outside my place. My heart was beating so fast i wanted to throw up. The last time I was on a date-date was with Baby and that was three years ago... He IS HOT!!! YUMM YUMM.
When we got to my house I went to the kitchen to pour him a drink and i remember just throwing my hands up in victory of this catch. I was like "Thankyou Jesus!"

BUT THEN

One hour into the date, i was sooooooooo DIASAPPOINTED.
He was a nervous wreck. Couldnt look me in the eye, kept on trying to fill in all the quiet spaces of silence... he just wasnt as laid back and calm as I wanted /expected him to be. I'de picked this up from him when i'd talk to him over the phone but when I told Sassy about it, she told me to go on a first date before I'd swear him off cuz maybe he'de b better in person.

BFP is the perfect MAN. PERFECT. which is why i so mad. He's kind, sweet, big heart, bigger cock (i saw it through his aeronautical engineering official pants when he sat back)... He's foused in school, he;s looking for a long term relationship, he came to the kitchen twice and kissed me on my cheek twice while i was finishing up the cooking, he said i was beautiful atleast three times... but... he's what Sassy labeled as a 'Virgin plus one'.
Because of his not having played the field enough, the date at some point felt like a 16year old first awkward date. and that just killed all the chemistry that had been brewing between us.

He's perfect but lacks a little element,my chemical X that drives my nutz with all men aka, SWAG.

SOme girls dont need this ( in a relationship) but i honestly cannot be attrated to someone if they dont have it. I honestly from the bottom of my heart cannot. Otherwise we will be (just) friends.

After the date i went straight to talk to Bootyfull about it. oooh she laughed at me. I smoked two cigarettes in a row. Mayn DATING SUX.

He asked me how i felt about the date. I took an hour to decide that i would be honest wit him. I told him that i didnt feel the spark that i wanted to feel when i met him... He must have known where he was screwing up cuz he started apologizing for his random blubbering and all and asked if i would give him another date. I said, anything for you,yes. I didnt mean it.

There are just some things that are part of ones personality that one cannot get rid of, neither obtain a new.

Should I sit through the second date or cancel before things get more complicated?
please just hepl me!! :-/

Mayn, i really hoped that me and him would work..
Sulk.