So I'm totally not inspired to write. But its been a while since i wrote last about the great endeavours of my fascinating life. That, and I'm bored stiff, stuffed with chicken and irritated by DSTV's repetitive adverstisements. They make my brain feel like goo. You know I can get the point of what your trying to say if you replay the same clip three times. After that, its just nagging.
Anyway...
On the 10th of december at exactly 9 pm i handed in my last exam of 2009... BLISS. I was so ready to have fun and party!!!!!
REWIND<<<
I havent told you about the progress Brit have made have made. :-) :-)
Allow me to do it in a recap fashion... He is the best, most sensual, sentimental, ragingly fierce lay that I have ever had. And i dont mean firece in a Tyra Banks kind of way. ( I am half heartedly her fan).
He is OFFICIALLY the best I have ever had. Puts me first,serves my drink, gives me the bigger pillow, nini nini. Baby would never do that. I was so used to not being treated like i mattered that i honestly thought I was happy and that nothong was wrong.
--BACK TO THE PRESENT
And after my last paper, I was ovationed out of the exam room with one beautifull text (from BRIT) and a shot of tequilla at the local pub (FROM SASSY). Bliss.
He looked so dash. I saw him smile from across the room while Sassy ushered me towards him; how cute.
We spent the next SEVEN days together at my place. It was so...great! We woke up when WE wanted, made the bed when I wanted, cooked when HE wanted, made love however whatever wherever. One day, he left top go pick up and important letter that came for him from Britain and when he got back, he had a huge ass bottle of wine and a bottle of Top Secret whisky; blended with brandy (hope I got that right)...And to top it all of, chocolates. oh and a whole chicken for dinner the next day ( as I was already cooking when he walked in) minced beef and bacon.
Is this real???
Maybe THE LAW OF ATTRACTION does really exist. You know, the famous book and film; the Secret...
He caught a flu the next night and i spent the it warming tea, squeezing flu remedies out of my brain and muttering 'Bless yous'. (I have the flu now).
The next night, I felt that the room was too hot so he opened all the windows and half an hour later there were at least twenty something mosquitoes resting and buzzing around the mosquito net. (he counted). See i thought they were like four or five mosquitoes but when I went and turned on the lights there four or five mosquitoes flying but about twenty ON THE NET!! it was horrifying and disguisting to see that. So I grabbed a can of RAID and SPRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYED! i hate hate hate bugs. Once Brit had one whiff of the insecticide his flu symptoms got abit worse so, to get some fesh air, we decided to grab some duvets and go stand at the balcony for a few minutes.
Which later turned out to be an hour.
It was a beautiful night and having Brit with me made it magical. And then, he brought it up. Relationship. Oh shit.
By then we had already started playing with the idea of being in love..Sometimes carelessly yelling it out loud; like when i tasted the stew he had made one noit...or when he was about to hit orgasm he blurted it out,(oooh the sweat bwteen us!) or when we spoke about how our parents would react when we brought home significant others from oppossing Kenyan tribes...
"Please dont ask me tonight babe..." I muttered.
"So what do you call us? we are sleeping together, we're exclusive, we really like each other. And now we are starting to feel bigger feelings.. " He started to ask.
I explained to him (again) how when we tag what we have as a relationship that all the shit will start to happen. Like tension when i ask where he is, or awkwardness when we are seen together (right now)... I mean, without that label, 'relationship' I can call him and ask where he is without that notion that im being insecure or when he is out and im not he doesnt have to feel stressed that i might be trippin. Just shit like that.
Its been a month with Brit now but basically im just not ready.
The best thing is that he gets this. but if he does why did he bring it up again? AND PLEASE BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY I AM THE RELATIONSHIP TYPE. BUT A THREE YEAR DEVASTATING TOXIC RELATIONHIP WITH BABY JUST SHOOK MY WHOLE ROMANCE SYSTEM. I reeeallly LIKE Brit. sometimes i even think i love him (yaaaaa).
And the way we are together is so amazing and fresh and unbelievable to me. I am crazy about him. But im scared that a relationship so soon could ruin things.
I fIgured he wanted to be assured that I am his and that I am not going anywhere. And thats what i told him. We are playing house; as relationship people do but, i just want to be called 'together'.
I cant stop thinking about him. And he cant stop telling me how much he misses me... Its such a honeymoon phase i tell you but i love it.
I could be falling in love.
My mom will die once she finds out what tribe he is.. :-)
And today do you know what he texted me... "you complete me..."
hahaha. Giggling.
